It's an I'm Finally Back Home and This Time I Don't have to Leave for 2 Weeks Kind of Day

Finally back home after a week on the road. 
(Heavy post to follow...skip to the next bold section if you aren't feeling that today.)

Despite being centered around one a bachelorette party in Vegas and a tradeshow in my college town, this week was really rough for me. I don't often get homesick or have a hard time being on the road, and even when I do, I don't talk about it much because I try to be optimistic when I'm alone, but I feel like this one deserves a bit of an acknowledgement. 

Traveling alone (even if you are headed to meet up with other people) is exhausting. As a woman, I have to be aware of what is going on around me all the time. I have to keep an eye on my luggage, my purse, the people around me, and typically I stay pretty safe. Last year I had the crutch of my ex who was also on the road a lot - if I was feeling uneasy about something or feeling down, I'd call him and instantly feel safer. But when I ended things with him, I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't rely on anyone for that anymore. I would choose to be optimistic with all things on my trips. 

So far, this plan has gone really well. But exactly one week ago today, the day I left on my trip, a dear friend's father passed away from leukemia. His battle was short—he was only diagnosed a few weeks ago—but that didn't leave all of us much time to get used to the idea that he'd soon be leaving us. So when I was notified last Thursday, I dealt with it in the best way I could while not at home: I told my friends that I loved them and that I was sorry for their loss, and I tried to focus on the bachelorette party. 

But I've been struggling. I've known this family since I was 5, and while we weren't always super close, we have become so lately. One of my best friends (S) is about to marry their oldest son (A). Another of my best friends (N) has an adorable almost-2-year-old (C) with their youngest son (G). A lost his dad. G lost his dad. S lost her soon-to-be father-in-law. N lost her son's grandfather. C lost his grandfather. And I am mourning for all of them. 

And on the road I had to mourn alone. I had to be optimistic. I had to put on a happy face and celebrate L's bachelorette and then keep the happy face on and lead my company at a big tradeshow. And it has been hard. This girl needs a hug right now. 

But now I'm home, and I'm so thankful that I get to spend two weeks here before I must leave again. 

Sorry for the long post today. 
Now let's see some work clothes, since that is what you're here for, right?

Yet another basic outfit like my one last week inspired by Liz over at 26 and Counting. Just love the fact that I work at a start-up where I can wear almost whatever I want; I don't feel guilty at all pairing a casual t-shirt with some slacks. Definitely my new summer work uniform.

Scarf: Forever 21 (similar), Tee: LOFT, Slacks: Banana Republic (similar), Flats: Target
Little half french braid for the greasy bangs :)


Hope I wasn't too much of a downer today. If you made it this far, thanks for sticking around. You are definitely appreciated. 
Posted on June 28, 2012 .